All posts by Lucian Clark

Lucian Clark is a born and raised South New Jersey queer who has a B.A. in Psychology with a dual minor in Human Services (almost full degree) and Sociology from Post University. They plan to work with schools to make their schools a safer place for queer youth. When not working on school work, they spends their time playing video games, reading, and playing MtG. They have been published on several websites (which are listed on their own website, http://GenderTerror.com). You can follow them on twitter at @TinyAwoo or on Tumblr under TinyAwoo.

All in Fear: Queer Horror for the Holidays

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All in Fear is a queer horror anthology that features a wide variety of different topics. From vampires, to experiments, to frat houses, All in Fear has something for everyone. Each one of these six stories has a unique and alluring feel to it, drawing the reader into the world of the author. All in Fear: A Collection of Six Horror Tales is available now at OpenInkPress.com.

GenderTerror was lucky to get a small interview with each of the authors, asking them what their inspirations were as well as why queer horror was something that was important to them. Each author’s personal feelings are felt in each story in this small anthology, making it that much more personal and interesting for readers.

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Dark Corners: Finding Ourselves in Horror

GaymerX East panel/talk on queer horror presented by Lucian Clark of GenderTerror. Best listened to with headphones as some parts are quiet!

Presented at GaymerX East 2016.

The two articles referenced in the talk:

Monsters Of Our Own: Monster Symbolism in the Trans Community

SOMA: A Trans-Simon Experience

Patrons gets access to the transcript of the original writing of the panel! Go check out our Patreon.

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Click. Click. Click. She rapped her nails on the table, sounding like a small dog walking across a tile floor. This analogy wasn’t entirely incorrect, though the words were not small nor dog (in the man’s best friend sense anyway). Lenore sighed and with a loud huff, rested her head in her other hand and continued her clicking on her kitchen table. What to do, what to do. The rain echoed her rhythm on the table, a slow and heavy sort of rain. The type that soaks you the minute you walk out the door with fat, heavy drops.

She couldn’t go for a run. Her girlfriend hated the way she smelled when she went for a run in the rain. Her girlfriend was a cat person, being a witch and all, but of course she fell for the werewolf. Go figure. Ana would shoo Lenore out of the house some nights until she dried out and this rain didn’t seem to want to stop. So that was out of the question. What was a bored werewolf to do?

Ana was out. She was out often. Lenore didn’t have to ask where she went anyway. She always came back smelling like spice and sweat. Ana said it was her coven. She never smelt like sex or lust so, Lenore didn’t pry much more into it. No reason. You can’t really hide cheating from a werewolf. People joke about people stinking of guilt and other women, which isn’t exactly incorrect, but Lenore doubted they could actually smell it like her.

With a groan of the chair, Lenore rose her massive frame and decided to see what mischief she could get into in her own house. Why not explore Ana’s study? Maybe she could set up a nice surprise for her or get some ideas for the soon coming holidays. Whatever Lenore could get into in the study was infinitely more interesting than watching water falling from the sky.

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GenderTerror October Raffle!

It’s National Horror Month! Also known as the month of Halloween (or October for the party poopers). So in the spirit of the holiday, we are doing a raffle.

GenderTerror is a queer horror site for and by queer people. We have everything from reviews, exclusive art and writing, creator profiles, educational materials, and various types of non-fiction. We believe strongly in supporting our community and pay those who contribute to the site.

As a new site, we need to build a fanbase. Thus, why not hold a raffle in the spookiest of all months!? The raffle will end on October 31st, 2016 at 11:59PM EST. A winner will be chosen on November 2, 2016 at 3PM EST. This is to allow us time to go through the entries and sort everything out! So if you reblog the post after the cut off you will not be entered.

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Queer Ghosts and Those Who Find Them: An Interview with Queer Ghost Hunters

When you think ghost hunting, the first names that come to mind are usually Ghost Adventures and Ghost Hunters. Zak Bagans, Jason Hawes and Grant Wilson. The majority of popular ghost hunting shows are male dominated, and rather pervasively straight. Men yelling at ghosts and never quite learning much about the ghosts and their lives.

In comes Queer Ghost Hunters and the Stonewall Columbus Queer Ghost Hunter; a group of people all across the LGBTQ spectrum with one goal in mind, to find queer ghosts and tell their stories. This group of ghost hunters in the focus of the Queer Ghost Hunters web series, set to broadcast on YouTube in mid-October. Stu Maddux is hard at work placing the finishing touches on the series, so I had the opportunity to talk to three members of the Queer Ghost Hunters team: Scott, Shane, and Kai. These people are only a small sample of the members on the Queer Ghost Hunters team.

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Creator Profile: GRYPT

Their Twitter bio reads an “unholy trinity based in LA creating music + interactive”. Having been together since 2013, GRYPT is more than just a band. They are also writers as well as sound designers. Their music is available on Spotify, with the first chapter of their monthly horror serial available on Bandcamp.

This mysterious trio is made up of Romie Romak, their vocalist, writer, and narrator. The other members, Taylor Shechet and Myrrh Ka Ba, are much more mysterious as to their roles. Fitting for the band, their eerie sound, and the content they create.

Eerie is the best way to describe GRYPT, in my experience. From listening to The Blob Stares Back, to listening to their first album Thy Flesh Consumed, an eerie tone and sound is pervasive. It drips and oozes this eeriness in sound and word. As eerie as one would say a glass crypt would be.

Below is a small interview with front woman, Romie Romak, about the band, their work, and her influences.

[Interview appears as was written by Romie with minor corrections]

As most interviews start, what is GRYPT?

GRYPT is a horror themed multimedia project. At the core we are a band, making tracks and playing shows and such, but we also create fiction and other audio media.
We’ve recently been working on an audio drama that I write and narrate each month, accompanied with sound design and scoring by GRYPT.

Why GRYPT? Why interactive horror media?

GRYPT, the name, is a made up magic word we coined by combining the words ‘glass’ and ‘crypt.’

Having been brought together by the shared influence of the Horror genre, it was unavoidable. Being horror themed as a project, I mean.

As far as creating original multimedia Horror, We wanted to show the scoring capabilities of GRYPT, as well as an experiment with bringing my story ideas to the table. Our recent audio fiction piece is an exercise in channeling the classic Americana of War of the Worlds or EC comics.

What are some of your influences?

Musically, we (GRYPT) are varied but all come from a place of having been into industrial, IDM or trip hop or whatever at some point or another..

We harbor a semi-secret plan to make nu metal influence cool, in a myriad of different ways, varying in directness.

Fiction writing wise, personally, I’m a total retrophile. I have a passion for the time period of whacky, cash-in, increasingly obscure VHS horror. I’m just drawn to stories where the concept itself is the only real character in the movie. And, as I think I mentioned, I live for old horror comics. There is a certain magic to those things I try to recapture.

The Blob Stares Back. I listened to Chapter 0 and I must say the combination of your [Romie] voice and the soundtrack is absolutely amazing. How long does it take to do a chapter?

Thank you.
We do each chapter the month before it is released.. I go in, record my narration, then Taylor and Myrrh Ka Ba the score and sound design landscape.

I have no idea how the story will end. I’m writing each chapter as I go.

Will people be able to get the full story anywhere? Like an audio book of sorts?

We plan to release The Blob Stares Back, when it’s finished as an album and perhaps a companion book of illustrations would be in order.

In the meantime, anyone can subscribe to receive the next chunk of the story each month if they support us on Patreon. There is no minimum donation required to get The Blob Stares Back.

Also, the first 7 chapters will be aired October 13th on KXLU. We’ll be there on the air with our homie Jarrod from Girl Pusher.

Where to go from here?

We have new music to succeed our last album, Thy Flesh Consumed, which will be released soon.

In the meantime, we’re also figuring out how to finish The Blob Stares Back..

 

If you enjoy spooky tunes or a good old school style audio serial, check out The Blob Stares Back. Chapter 0 alone is filled with wonderful ambiance that matches Romie’s perfect tone for this type of work. Taylor Shechet and Myrrh Ka Ba provide a wonderful soundtrack that could be released alone. The Blob Stares Back matches the worlds and feeling of old school horror VHS, making you feel involved even if you aren’t.

If you want more on GRYPT you can find all the necessary information on their Patreon or Twitter.

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Smiles and Lies

This piece was originally written in 2010, before I transitioned. The piece remains in its original format.

Hiding
Hiding
Suppressing
Suppressing

No matter what
It won’t stop
It won’t go away

No matter how hard I try
He stays and he stays
Digging and clawing

He begs and he begs
He whispers into my ears
and fills my dreams

Without him I am nothing
But he is not all of me
Acceptance is mutual

My dark passenger
Such a love-hate
He is all that is
And is all that I am

Yet he is not what they see
Nor will he ever be
Forever hidden
Behind a lie and a smile

Bullshit bullshit they cry
but they do not know
know one ever knows

people wonder why they never know
because it is always hidden behind
a smile and a lie

a monster can dream
and a monster can fear
but a monster will always lie

Always hidden behind a smile and a lie
always in the shadows
of your mind
of my mind

he whispers and speaks
and I gladly listen
for a monster’s plan is always
quite pleasant

for his dreams and his schemes
for his nightmares and his lusts
I am held captive

for I am the monster
who smiles and lies
who hides behind the clever disguise

the one you never suspected
was capable of anything
quite like the monsters

dreams and schemes
smiles and lies
we all hide behind

smiles and lies
smiles and lies

without them we are nothing
no where to hide no where to run
but we will always exist

they never see us
because our dreams and schemes
are all hidden behind
smiles and lies

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Monsters Of Our Own: Monster Symbolism in the Trans Community

“Scary monsters, super creeps
Keep me running, running scared
Scary monsters, super creeps
Keep me running, running scared” –David Bowie, Scary Monsters (and Super Creeps)

 

Grotesque. Violent. Terrifying. Misunderstood. Sympathetic. These are some words people use to describe monsters, depending on who you are asking and what the monster is. People’s perception of monsters and their existence is ever changing. Monsters often take the shape of the times, evolving to show the current fears and terrors of the world they come to life in. Frankenstein’s monster is much different than the slashers of modern age. The werewolf from an American Werewolf in London may share similarities with the teenagers of Ginger Snaps, but their raison d’être is quite different.

Stephen T. Asma, in his book On Monsters, describes monsters as “extraordinary beings”.  Monsters encompass everything from phobias, to societal woes. They are both unimaginable and plausible. They encompass both the inhuman and human. Monsters are both literal and symbolic. The idea of a monster goes from one pole to the other, captivating and horrifying us. Society holds a very love-hate relationship with monsters and their attractive natures.

This duality of monsters, their appeal on a physical, psychological, cultural, and emotional level speaks to people. Monsters are seen across ages, across time, across the globe. However, the meaning of monsters for people are as varied as the monsters themselves. Even the same monster can mean different things to different people, all based on cultural and personal factors. For some people, monsters hold a deep connection to their very identity and how they see themselves and the world.

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Body Political

(Originally published on Gender Splendor in Fall 2013)

My body is a political weapon. I’m not talking about just the fact my body is a transgender one either. I am a walking political billboard, by my own choice. I use my body, especially how I dress my body, as a statement every time I go out into public. I am a visibly queer and transgender person. While I dress rather gender non-conforming (since I am a non-binary person who prefers feminine clothing, heels, and extreme colors), there is something much more eye catching than that.

I wear a hoodie, covered in buttons and patches ranging from simple trans pride flags to loud exclamations of gender terrorist, the gender binary is a form of hierarchy and oppression, and your silence will not save you. From the moment I walk out the door of my grandmother’s house, I am setting out on the table who and what I am. I am THAT queer person who introduces themselves as queer almost before they give you their name.

This simple article of clothing has become an important part of me. I love being visible. I find empowerment in it. I love knowing that the moment I walk into a place, I automatically get the label of queer (or some form of it). Every day is some form of social experiment depending on where I go and it seems to be a bigger success than my topless NYC Pride statement (where everyone just thought I was a hairy lesbian. More planning needed for next year). If people are not staring at me, I am probably at a friend’s house. Everywhere I go, people stare and look.

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Orlando: Not the First, Not the Last

To help the survivors and the families of the victims, please look here: https://www.oneorlando.org/ and https://www.gofundme.com/PulseVictimsFund

On Sunday, June 12, 2016, 49 people were murdered. Another 53 were injured. The majority were LGBTQ Latinx people celebrating Latinx night at Pulse Nightclub. During Pride month. These people were targeted specifically, with the location having been scouted by the shooter. According to patrons, the shooter was also seen several times at the club and known for getting drunk and angry. He was also known for extreme racism and homophobia. This means the shooter knew that night there would be a large gathering of QPoC. This is not the first or the last time queer people (usually of color) have been targeted.

Before Orlando there was:

Compton Cafeteria Riots in San Francisco in August 1966.

Stonewall Police Raid in New York City on June 27-28, 1969.

The UpStairs Lounge Fire in New Orleans on June 24, 1973. 32 dead.

AIDS Crisis from the 1980s to 1990s. Thousands dead.

Otherside Lounge in Atlanta in February 1997.  5 injured.

Backstreet Café in Roanoke in September 2000. 1 dead. 7 injured.

Neighbors in Seattle on December 31, 2013. None injured.

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